Weigh in Wednesday - Gotta be pleased

Really chuffed with this mornings weigh in as I'm down another 3lb. This is despite been away at the weekend and having a couple of big meals and washing them down with some beer. Still have played a bit of TT so got my exercise in and I have eaten well at home.

Story so far :-

Start Weight (4th Jan)      - 225lb
11th Jan                          -  223lb
18th Jan                          - 221lb
25th Jan                          -  218lb
1st Feb                            - 217lb
8th Feb                            - 217lb
15th Feb                          - 216lb
22nd Feb                         - 215lb
29th Feb                          - 212lb

Sad Day
RIP Davy Jones

I just don't know what to do with myself

Yes its a song title I know but its exactly how I feel at present. Only just over two weeks to my Lisbon holiday which I'm looking forward to. I know during the week I've got my TT and Pool matches but next two weekends my diary is empty and I don't want it that way.

I'm someone who always likes to have something on or somewhere to go I must admit and its these sort of weekends that really makes me miss dating. Been single sucks sometimes especially when most of your friends are married or in a relationship.

Maybe I should play golf but of course that would depend on the weather at this time of year, aint played for nearly a year. Maybe go to the Football Leeds are at home Saturday but its a late kick off so not sure I want to, footie is meant to be 3pm.
Maybe I should make a effort to get a date, have been chatting to few ladies online and could be some that are up for a meet up. To be honest I made a decision no to date until after easter, still have strong feeling elsewhere and dont want to move on too early, it unfair to others to date on rebound. Suppose part of me still wants to turn the clock back if i'm honest and I know once I've moved on thats it no turning back just how I am.

So anyone any suggestions how to fill my weekends ?

I'll think of something I hope ?

And yes here is the song :-

Say it with music

Away today for weekend so no time to post so thought I'd leave some music.

Weigh in Wednesday - Double Figures

Another pound down and that puts me into double figures yes 10lb down so far this year. Sure it could be better but in the same breath I'm moving in the right direction and steady is the way to go.
Had a iffy knee fo awhile which as restricted my exercise so hopfully soon I'll be able to up the amount I do especially as the weather improves.

Story so far :-

Start Weight (4th Jan)      - 225lb
11th Jan                          -  223lb
18th Jan                          - 221lb
25th Jan                          -  218lb
1st Feb                            - 217lb
8th Feb                            - 217lb
15th Feb                          - 216lb
22nd Feb                         - 215lb

Was reading some of my old blog posts the other day and came across one I wrote back in 2006 in which I posted "My Golden Rules", basically sayings I try to run my life to, think they are true today. So thought I'd repost with explanations.

1. Live today like you will be dead tomorrow.
Don't put off what you want to do in life because one day you wont be able to do it. Ialways think of the story of the lady who bought a new outfit and was saving it for a special occasion, first time she wore it was in her coffin.

2. Treat others like they treat you.
Speaks for itself really, if people can't be decent or nice don't see why I should be ith them.
3. Never give anyone a 2nd chance to let you down.
 I really do believe this and try to stick to it, actually past friends are no longer in my life because of it.

4. Learn from other peoples mistakes.
Well you haven't time to make them all yourself have you. Seriously experience in life comes from making mistakes learn from them all whether you have made them or others.

5. Its not the taking part its the winning that counts.
This caused a debate last time because everyone just associated it to sports. Really thats not all its about I believe life is competitive and winning is everything. It could be something like passing a exam, passing your driving test, etc. What about getting a ob in front of 50 other applicants or what about pulling the girl of your dreams when everyone else is after her. yes life is competitive with winners and losers and I want to win.

6. Set your goals high and don't stop until you get there.
This is about having ambtions an aims in life, don't let anyone or anything detract you from them. Its so easy to get trapped in lifes routines we actually forget what we really want.
7. Never ask your friends what they can do for you ask what you can do for them.
This basically means be a good prson and a good friend, recognise other peoples issues and not just your own.

8. Don't make your only ambition in life to become the richest person in the graveyard.
I find money makes so many people greedy, the more they get the more they want, its not gonna buy you happiness. You earn it to spend it right.

9. Honesty is everything.
I hate liers and cheats with a passion, always have think its sad there are too many about. I only want to be friends with people I really trust its as simple as that.

10. You get out what you put in.
Life doesn't owe us anything we've gotta earn it (hate spongers they are a burdon on society). Can relate it to many things but sport is a prime example the harder i train/practice the better I get. But you can relate to relationships, work, anything really.

Glad I read these again given me things to think about for sure hope you agree with some of them.

Ups and Downs

Just read back my negative post from yesterday so I'd like to say I'm feeling much better today, seem to be over the low point. Its typical of me at present, one day I'm up the next down think my emotions are shot.

Today I visited Mum and Dads grave, strangely I always seem to feel better after going there, thought it may upset me but just the opposite happens.

Enjoyed going out to Pool last night, good laugh with the lads and really played well which was a bonus, won my singles with my first visit, first 8 ball clear up I've done for ages. Arranged one of my Pub singles for tonight, the other for tomoz so going out for at least a hour or so both nights. Planning to go in car both nights but toying with walking tonight and having a few beers, they have a quiz later so would join in. Trouble is its not in the diet plan but on the other hand think been out does me good.

Thinking positive and forward lets face it the future is always more important than the past. Not sure where my life is going but am giving it lots of thought.

Sure everything is not perfect and I'm sure there is more low points ahead but I'm determined to keep bouncing back. In my mind I have a couple of outstanding issues in my life one will be sorted by easter the other is ongoing, some of you know about it but a present there is little i can do until the powers that be get moving, reckon it'll be a long drawn out saga.

Down in the dumps

Wasn't gonna post because of the way I feel but thought just writing a blog post would help me. I've got to be honest and say I'm really down in the dumps at the moment, think what my emotions have gone through and are still going through have taken their toll.

I'm not sleeping properly so I know thats not helping but its really when I home alone I just feel like garbage, I've no get up mand go, cant even concentrate on watching TV. Today as been real bad, think I'm bordering on depression but am determined to pull myself out of it. When I got up to get my meal I felt close to tears as it gets but for no reason, just feel so sad.

When I'm with people or chatting its ok keeps my mind occupied, its the times I'm here by myself my head just screws up. Weekend was great away with the table tennis team and was just fine. Had a good chat to Paula yesterday which boosted me up, not about this just lots of other things, don't want to trouble her she got enough on her plate at present.

I do feel isolated and sort of lonely with not too many people I can really talk to about how I feel, not really close to too many, of course people ask how I'm doing and the reply is always ok.
Its actually easier at times to talk to online friends and friends from afar, I've one lady friend I've known a long time from down south who is good, she says phone anytime and I've been talking to her on the phone quite a bit, I'm very grateful for her friendship and help/advice.

Trouble is I'm not good at asking for advice, always been the shoulder for others and a positive person, I've never felt this low, don't know where its going.

Luckily I'm out at Pool tonight, be good to have a laugh with the lads but nothing on next two nights could be tough going. I've a couple of Pool singles to rearrange so maybe fit them in although I don't think it will be a great idea to find myself going to the Pub every night.
Away this weekend which is good but then two dead weekends that I'm not to enthusiastic about before I go to Portugal which I hope helps.

Need to sort my head out.

Gee this is a miserable post, suppose thats what blogging is about, no use pretending.

Weigh in Wednesday - still moving in the right direction

Only a pound lost this week but quite happy cos don't think i've been that good with exercise and eating, know I can do better.

Start Weight (4th Jan)      - 225lb
11th Jan                          -  223lb
18th Jan                          - 221lb
25th Jan                          -  218lb
1st Feb                            - 217lb
8th Feb                            - 217lb
15th Feb                          - 216lb

The Dating Game

Thought with it been Valentines day I'd update you on whats happening onthe dating front, well thats easy I've nothing to report, lol.

Did actually get a Valentines card today, not a clue who its from but hell someone loves me so who cares. And I'm keeping it to myself how many I sent.

I've got a few options including a couple of opportunities to date from people I've been chatting to online, but I've decided I'm leaving things while April before I make any decisions. Lets just say I've got my reasons but think its the right thing to do as I've a lot going on in my head. Plus got my Lisbon trip in March which I'm looking forward to (prop meet a nice portugeses girl, lol).

On that note as I'm flying from heathrow and staying over the night before I'm going to do a detour to visit Janes Mum and Dad and of course visit her grave. I phoned her Mum to tell her and she was thrilled I'm coming, looking forward to seeing them. Still can't believe its two and half years since I lost her, part of her will always be with me. Can't help wondering where our relationship would be now if she was still here, know we really loved each other.

A tale of 3 ladies

Had my trip to London yesterday to have a reunion with 3 ladies I met on holiday last summer, really enjoyed it was great to see them again.

Set off early and was it cold, minus 7 when I left home to o to the railway station for the 7.24am train. Arrived in London just after 9.30am so went for a coffee and bit of breakfast before making my way to Covent Garden for our meet up. Actually as I was early went to Piccadilly first and walked via Leicester Square checking out a few shops on route.

We met up at 11.30am and went to a pub first to knock the froth off one and have a chat, eventually went to lunch and our local guide Rachael decided on a Mexican restaurant. Meal was good but cant tell you what I had, enjoyed all the same and of course we saw off a few bottles of wine.

After lunch we made our way to the river where we spent the rest of the day on a boat near millenium bridge and opposite the London eye, which had been converted into a pub.
Had a good few laughs, can't believe its 8 month since I saw them all, hope its not aslong to our next reunion.

picture is of us on a jeep safari in sedona last summer, was god laugh, left to right, Rachael, me, Liz & Eirian.

Busy time ahead

Got a TT match in York tonight and to be honest could do without it, up early in the morning to catch train to London for my reunion lunch with friensi met on holiday last summer. Should count myself lucky now i'm single again, spending the day with 3 lovely single ladies, lol.

Got a lot of weekend comiments n both Febuary and March, next weekend its up to Hartlepool for British League in fact looking in my diary there doesn't appear many gaps. To be honest its how i like it, no fun sitting at home.

Not just TT commitments though other things happening that i'm no posting about yet.

Weght Loss Wednesday - Good or Bad I don't know

For the first time this year at my weekly weigh in I've not got a loss to tell you about but on the positive side I've not gained either, 217lb exactly same as last week.
Of course that asks the question "Is it a Good or Bad result ?"
Start Weight (4th Jan)      - 225lb
11th Jan                          -  223lb
18th Jan                          - 221lb
25th Jan                          -  218lb
1st Feb                            - 217lb
8th Feb                            - 217lb

A few bits of good news firstly the other weekend I met up with a long time online friend for the first time. Think all of you know I keep my many photos on Flickr. Well I'm a member of a group on there for Leeds United supporters, we share photos and have a small forum on the site. The administrator Dave who set up the group lives in Doncaster so when I played TT in the town he came along and we had a beer afterwards and a real good chat.

Talking of Leeds United fans its great to see a return to blogging of one of my long term friends Airliebird, is it really 3 years since her last post, where does the time go.

Its this Saturday I'm off down to the big city (London) to have a reunion lunch with three ladies I met on holiday, really looking forward to it, sure to have a few laughs.

On the downside its been really cold around here with snow and ice, dropped to minus 10 last night which is cold for us.

Music Monday - British Blues

Stones with a Howlin Wolf cover, the only traditional blues song to be a UK no1,


Eric Burdon the best blues voice ever, white men can sing the blues.


Peter Green awesome talent, Fleetwood when they were a blues group.


Eric Clapton say no more.


check out the last one, a young Rod Stewart when he was a blues singer.

All dressed up and nowhere to go

Was supposed to be playing TT in Yorkshire league at Hull today but it got called off last night due to the heavy snow we've had. Bit narked really, main roads arn't that bad and we arn't gonna get any more so think they panicked too soon.

I'd even made my pack up, so suppose its sarnies for my meal today, lol.

On another note been thinking about whats the worst part of been single again and suppose it easy to say lack of sex but that not really it. I reckon its eating alone, I don't just mean going out for meals but even eating at home, cooking for yourself is no fun.
Visited a cousin this week which was nice so did get to eat with others, its really what made me think about it.

Weigh in wednesday - Another Week Another Pound

Just 1lb lost this week but a loss is a loss so I'm happy.

Start Weight (4th Jan)      - 225lb
11th Jan                          -  223lb
18th Jan                          - 221lb
25th Jan                          -  218lb
Weight today                   - 217lb

So thats the first month over and I'm 8lb lighter, same in february and I'll be really pleased.